:: punched, drunk and loved ::

Sonntag, Februar 27, 2005

Cos all of the stars are fading away
Just try not to worry you'll see them some day
Take what you need and be on your way
And stop crying your heart out

it was |1:06:00 AM|

Mittwoch, Februar 23, 2005

two wks back, we were laughing and talking abt how we shud survive there together.

kenn: "i can cook (zu3) rice"
HP: "i can cook prawns!"
me: "sorry ah.. i only know how to cook eggs..."
all: "chey!"
JX: "ok lah... i'll zu3 shui3..."

it was funny enough, if not for the fact that 5 mins ago i smelt s'thing n went to the kitchen to discover that the boiled eggs i was making have EXPLODED.

a mistake really. i was hungry. i dint wanna swirl the eggs in the noodles. i forgot that boiled eggs means boiled water so that i boiled and continue to boil the water while the eggs are inside. so i dump the two eggs (yes, i eat two eggs almost every day. i'm an eggaholic. so i'll die of high cholestrol i know. but then everything is bad for u. carbo are bad. proteins are bad. now even the miracle fat - trans fats are bad. sat fats is bad. cholestrols are bad. colourings are bad. overnight tea is bad. saccharines are bad. tap water is bad. mineral water is bad. wat's a girl gotta eat i ask u??) into the pot of boiling water. i went to read my comics, i smelt something, i went to the kitchen and to my greatest horror - the lid was hopping mad and whitish water was furiously spurting and spilling out into the stove deck. the greatest horror was when i turned off the gas, open the lid.. the insides were totally white-coagulated bits. there bits of shell here and there, the eggs were totally cracked open to reveal two perfectly formed yolks.

thinking nothing of the disaster, and not wanting to risk try for explosion, i ate the yolks.

so there, i think i better be the one who zu3 shui3... ...

it was |2:07:00 PM|

Sonntag, Februar 20, 2005

wouldn't u get a feeling that there's s'thing wrong with the book where u are bombarded, within a chapter of 15 pages, with words like

antedates

endemic

ecclesiastical

emancipation

supersession*

implicit-proviso

schism

personage

iconoclasm

temporal
ramifications

polemically

facile

felictous

embitter

sardonic

propound

insidiously

syncretism*

mnemonic

trite

sententious

perfunctory

parousia*

eschatological

abstemiousness

...

(*) denotes that they can't even be found in the big fat orange CAMBRIDGE-ENGLISH dictionary.

and these are only the words i'd to check up in the dictionary. there were still lyk, a million more where i had to guess its (real/unreal) meaning. it's like primary sch english. or catherine chee's gp class: scan the article. underline the words u dunno. check the meaning. except that this time, it comes with understanding the bloody fuck-see-ah.. opps, i mean, fuchsia text.

screw u colin rowe, fred koether, and the mysterious editor at MIT Press.

such ob-scuri-ty. maybe dictionary sales has been de-sic-cating. so the de-praved editor deliberately po-pu-lated the book with these unknown words so that we have to buy their dictionary too.

130 more pages to go. wish me luck.

it was |4:26:00 AM|

Freitag, Februar 18, 2005

what causes u to leave? do u leave from boredom or do u fled to excitement? becoz leaving from boredom doesn't mean that the place in future will be exciting and fleeing to excitement doesn't necessary mean that there is anything wrong with the place at present. or maybe, we leave becoz there is a chance.

will u feel uneasy if one day, u discover that an event in ur life happened not becoz it HAD TO, but becoz of a few improbable fortuities?

for example, if u aren't with the person u are with now, u might have fallen in love with someone.

so when pple say that god has a plan for each of us, did the fine line read, "the plan really consists of random chances stringed together such that it seemed fated becoz human with their fine imagination like to read too much into it".

kinda remind me of the argument:
did 6 become a perfect number becoz he made the world (without adam that is) in 6 days and since he is the supreme goodness then 6 became a perfect number? then it is all arbitury. why 6? why not 3 or 5? that will imply that we are really, a product of randomness as well.

but our feeble minds cannot accept that our self-constructed notion of christian god/chinese heaven/ do things at random.

so did he made the world in 6 days becoz 6 was good to start off with? in which case, he is not the supreme goodness of all things. there is s'thing more fundamental that is Good.

"Co-incidence" mean that two events unexpectedly happen at the same time, they meet:

Tomas appears in the hotel restaurant at the same time the radio is playing Beethoven. We do not notice the great majority of such coincidences. If the seat Tomas occupied had been occupied instead by the local butcher, Tereza never would have noticed that the radio was playing Beethoven. But her nascent love inflamed her sense of beaity, and she would never forget that music. Whenever she heard it, she would be touched. Everything going on around her at that moment would be haloed by the music and take on its beauty.

becoz as i've said b4 (or rather, buddhism said), we are a collection of experiences. You are not the person who began reading this page. You will not be the person who flips to the next one.

subconsciously, how we look at things is very much like what our ancestors did: reading the cracks on the turtle shells.

it was |10:52:00 PM|

Dienstag, Februar 15, 2005

where were u last wkend?
i was in sch - handphone-less, cash-less, watch-less, alarm clock-less and bra-less. it's amazing how i survived two days lydat man.

how did u spend ur valentine's day?
i had my interim and a rush to queensway and a hurried impromptu and a how-very romantic dinner at ikea's.

why is it that we never miss the water 'til the well runs dry?
and when i saw those teenagers in sch uniforms with bags and bags of flowers and notes and chocolates, after my full day of rushing and meaningless contact, suddenly my heart was secretly yearning for the good old rgs/rj days. vday/frenshipday was such a happy event. and pple showed that they care in every li'l thing they do, every single day.

wat was ur fondest memory?
i was very much physically-drained once upon a time, but i was always feeling very, very happy. today, i just "get on" with life.

will i leave a void when i am gone?
i might not be ar'd next sem. but i think not to the qn.

it was |12:53:00 AM|

Mittwoch, Februar 09, 2005

my dear girl.. i miss u terribly can u plz can back quickly!!!!
_____

[danette] oleh oleh helo helo mana mana mada mada.. xyz damn channel 8 i want my ko-re-ah drama! not lauzee 80's cny shows! says:
i wanna watch constantine leh... only coz it's reeves. but i think i'll sleep thru;' this genre of movie
oysterboy:tying knots and missing home! HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR THO! says:
but reeves doesn't look like a constantine!
oysterboy says:
i want to read the comic book tho!
[danette] says:
wahh..
[danette] says:
ey did i tell u that my JS lecturer last sem looks like keanu reeves?
[danette] says:
the abit older and abit shorter version
[danette] says:
then during the exams i raised my hand for help n he came over then i suddenly forgot wat i wanted to ask
[danette] says:
hehehe
oysterboy says:
really?
oysterboy says:
HAHHA
oysterboy says:
you should have asked
oysterboy says:
"will you go out on a date with me?"
oysterboy says:
HEHEHE
[danette] says:
tsk..
[danette] says:
shy lah!
[danette] says:
-blush-
oysterboy says:
haha
oysterboy says:
but if don't act then the opportunity is gone already leh
[danette] says:
aiyoh! cannot!
[danette] says:
it'll be a shi-sheng-lian ok
[danette] says:
haha but anyways the opp is gone ALRD
oysterboy says:
now even better!
oysterboy says:
not teacher already
oysterboy says:
so technically it's okay!
[danette] says:
haha.. candice.. i see that u are really excited at the talk of keanu reeves...
oysterboy says:
heheheh
oysterboy says:
he's my childhood crush okay!

Transfer of "constantine.jpg" is complete.

[danette] says:
wat childhood crush.. i think now also man
[danette] says:
haha
oysterboy says:
but i liked him since i was uhm
oysterboy says:
10
oysterboy says:
ahahaha!
oysterboy says:
so sexy!
[danette] says:
not jin chengwu meh
oysterboy says:
no la
[danette] says:
oh wait. jin chengwu is mavis right?
oysterboy says:
that one is mavis'

it was |11:22:00 PM|

happy lunar new yr! gong xi fa cai xin nian kuai le wan shi ru yi nian nian yu yu...

when ur parents aren't ar'd anymore (choi!), will u still keep in touch with ur clan of aunties uncles or even 4th cousin thrice-removed? or a cny gathering where the next youngest member is 15yrs older than u are?

do u see urself decorating ur bachelor/bachelorette pad with bamboo shoots and couplets?

were u one of those irritating kids who loved cnys coz can run ar'd ur relatives hse nearly knocking down every single pot of bamboo/kum and then getting spanked for it?

so are u now sitting quietly on the sofas tasting every different kind of pineapple tarts (which u are supposed/expected to say like, "the 13th aunt's homebaked one taste better..") while watching the crappy 80's hk movies on tv and wishing that u can leave soon?

isn't it funny how u do not r'ber memories entirely as they do, but only certain scenes of what happened. i r'ber being spanked and e'one's watching, but i do not r'ber wat i was ripping apart, or how the scene of the reunion dinner that night looked like. i r'ber the sickening sweet taste of kueh bangkit and the scene where i puked after eating some, but i dun r'ber who cleaned me up after that.

the list can go on.

it was |10:15:00 PM|

Sonntag, Februar 06, 2005

i always thot i wud learn real surfing one day but now i know that i am definitely not a beach, not a surf person.

so we body-surfed ourselves with the water, following the energy ride. and there're no nonsense life-jacs! the waves were so frothy and merciless and it's not even the tsunami waves and i got entangled with their troughs and crests and rendered totally powerless. my breathing rythym was disregarded and a stream of clear saltwater burnt my trachea. the heartbeat quickened, the brain could not recognise how to respond to what was happening, her limbs resembled a drowning man more than what she was, a guys-certified strong swimmer.

i dunno how i untangled myself out of that mess, really. luckily my stamina is still q. strong. respect the sea, respect the ocean pple.

but kite-surfing looked really fun. maybe we shud try that s'day. and bintan's really cool.

it was |1:49:00 AM|