:: punched, drunk and loved ::

Montag, Mai 16, 2005

why, i din't noe u guys actually like them! there was this one person who told me to take all these notes down becoz it might incur the wrath and deep jealously of other people who aint got as many people lovin' them.

ey. i was gonna put up a pic of the mountain of notes/letters but in the end, i decided not to coz there were alr'd too many pics.

what to do. we live in a tragically unequal world. even when it comes to things as unmaterialistic as love.

anyways, i took so much time (sorry, everyone whom i dragged ar'd to look for it) and effort to find a perfect journal -paper cannot be too thin (ink will seep thru') or too thick (too heavy. unfrenly feel.). lines must be 0.7cm apart. (+/- 0.1) no coloured backgr'ds. (too distracting. difficult to match with pen's ink colour) funky cover. wire-bind- becoz a good start is .. well i dunno wat it is. but it's definitely good to have a good start.

i hope that book will contain many more frills and thrills and one day be worthy of the inspiration of a hollywood blockbuster/ epic produced by mir. muahhaha.

except that i haven't written any entry yet. opps.
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right now, i'm trying not to think too far of the days ahead in this long, hot and dusty empty space. it makes me feel like a loser. i wish that someone can explain the concept of time to me. does time run in a linear path? i dun think so. it's like distance. there's a relationship of distance - and possibly one might add, direction - btwn the north and south and once north and south cease to exist, there's no distance. and no time. why do we say, time passes by? or do we pass into time? if time-space is expanding at different rates, and massive objects warp space-time, wat do all these things mean?

i dunno. and too lazy a mind to try and understand the last parts. so if u wanna conclude that i am stupid, fine with me. who cares. so wat if i understand the fourth and maybe even the fifth, sixth and seventh dimensions? i am still living in and bound to interaction with the third - time adds, progresses and will never go back. and when a sufficient amount of time has passed, we add "amounts" and "weight" and "age" to it. and people judge u by the accumulation of those "weighty" things - not only physcially, but also in a mental sense. which is also why we cannot go back to that weightless state.

if u still dun understand, nvm. i dun too. but that's coz we concluded that i am stupid. so wat's ur lousy excuse?

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