:: punched, drunk and loved ::

Freitag, Februar 10, 2006

thinking abt our entities always blow my mind. and waste such a freaking large part of my time. i can't believe i spent a whole day on it with you. when i shud be doing practical stuff, z.B practical sch work or fulfilling my presidential roles in anticipating of the big day. (haha!) if u're raised up as to be such a free thinker and questioning mind as i did (at least on entities), u'll find that u can live very well w/o having to rely on certainty and assurance of this life, afterlife, beforelife and blah.blah.blah. even tho' we'd like to think that we're on our way to something greater, more, more, more. there's more to this, there's more to that. that's us, Man. it's always MORE. better. and betterment means no more shit. haha what an active self-imagination. it's all kitsch anyways. can u accept a he/she/it who has to shit or trim his/her/its nails once every wk? but we're all made in his/her/its images. think abt it. yet he/she/it is still the creator/ programmer in all sense of the word(s). and who can really trust any of them. politics always get in the way. even at funerals*. i guess that's what my dad was trying to teach all along. nothing can be totally reliable. fret for urselves. decide for urselves. which leads me to the big F word. freedom doesn't just mean totally free (u shud've realised by now. nothing in this world we live in is free), being able to choose (and let's not get me started on choices..), but freedom is being able to bear with the consequences of ur decisions. but intimidation shudn't be one of them. i want to eat an apple, so i must've weighed the crunchy pleasure against the possibility that the core can choke me to death. and i can either eat a solid apple or make it into pulp, or juice it! and either ways there's the possibilities of death (morbid. but that's that's the simplest analogies i can think of now). i turn up in a black tie event knowingly, wearing outrageous costumes or nothingness, becoz knowing that i might be kicked out, or shunned, i'm still gonna try to say something thru' that outfit. at least people wud see it. and i can respect u without honouring your beliefs and taboos. just becoz u can't eat beef doesn't mean i can't. which was what got me raked up last night actually. few people truly understand this word. freedom is not just any word. sure they were crude, but powerful. and this is what political cartoons shud be - crude but powerful. and it sure has achieved the aims of it's commission - to depict the fear when dealing with this subject. so i must say they're pretty successful. blahblahblah. oh!and go watch brokeback mountain people! i think it's a success. even howard stern * makes a surprise U-turn in his -ism and -phobia...

and speaking of holy shit... me need go now. haha

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