:: punched, drunk and loved ::

Freitag, April 28, 2006

i'm actually typing this post a second time becoz 5 mins ago the lightning KA-BA-BOOM and suddenly, my hse hse BLACKOUT. for a second, i actually thot i was going blind.. sheesh.

it reminds me of this stupid joke that my tuition kid asked a month ago,

why are there so many lightnings nowadays?

(answer to be revealed, at the end of the post)

anyways, good for you, beocz i'm just gonna make this SECOND typing short.

i'd just wanted to flaunt: life's been too good.

i dun want this exam period to end. i dun want the frantic everyone intern-searching, job finding, and stressing-u-out to come. my days are now long, lazy, and most importantly, list-less.

list-less. yes. actually, i ought to make a list/ mugging timetable for the paper next weds... but... noooOOOooo.. accumulated wisdom has told me i am just gonna oh-so-panic next wk.

but here i am, re-reading my book of the wk, finishing my 4th tub of ice cream of the week, sipping of the stolen beer (i hope daddy doesn't count them! haha), wishing that the rain (FREAK) will hurry up end so that i can meet wenshan cheng and mavis for dinner =)

and to jumpstart your pathway to the good life, here are some signs that shows, well. life's been too good!

- the tummy's growing so big, a fitting specialist will prob think u're a few months preggie.
- the jeans can't really fit anymore.
- u start doing the "ms universe" wave, chicken wings in place.
- the first thing u think of when u wake up in the morn is, "so... what day of the wk is this?".
- going to the nearest mart to buy ice cream actually seems too long a trip that u start bribing ur siblings to run down for u. and they do. haha.
- the biggest decision in ur life is: shall i cut my hair.. or not??

the most exciting things that's in the near future are well, all on next fri... so it's still a long wait.

speaking of which, once i thot, all was lost. but apparently not so. i'ld like to think that things are falling into place then i tell myself i can't, coz then it wun come true (like how someone said, "u go buy 4D. but dun think that it'll come out. then it WILL come out!". haha). so well, dun stop ur praying, buddha-leg-huggings for me!

but nevertheless, lunches together everyday for 2 months do sound good. (altho' i still think highly impossible. haha)

*pats her big belly*

(and actually, i've a morbid fascination with it. keep patting it, listening to the sound. keep turning ar'd to this full length mirror and see how big and beautiful it looks like as i slouch even further into my armchair...definitely preggie behaviour. but NO. i'm not.)

and the answer:

becoz PAP is coming to town.

... ...

hahaha i thot it was q. funny. kids these days ah... haha

it was |6:36:00 PM|

Donnerstag, April 27, 2006

i thought that this statement is really stupid, until i looked at it again.

"the large majority of youth are in the mainstream of society".

tricky tricky. better make sure u dun write like this during exams. tsk tsk.

anyways, I HAVE A CHOICE! yay!

and so for the first time in his 55(?) yrs of age, my daddy (and mom. and me!) can vote. yes. so exciting.

it was so funny. how the PAP truck tore down the streets to put up all the banners and posters less than an hr since the closing of the nominations. (i happened to need step out of hse then. caught the funny frantic sight. haha.) and small things like how, even the truck driver was wearing an all-white ensemble.

not to be outdone, by the time i stepped back on AMK soil, "YOU HAVE A CHOICE" has its bright red banners everywhere... the lightning and the hammer, the white and the red. whiteout/bloodshed soon?

i said choices can be bad too not too long ago, didn't i?

befitting the mood of the day, think about the "alternative view" offered by the alternative CHOICE.

what is alternative? it is something that is not mainstream, right?

but if enough people, a majority, support it/ think that way...

so doesn't the alternative simply becomes the mainstream, the prevailing mood?

it was |11:57:00 PM|

everything's changing. everything's scary.

have u changed? are u scared?

i think everyone's pretty scared these days. some are scared coz everyone seems to be changing. some are scared coz nothing seems to be changing even while everyone's changing.

so how apt it is to come across this (in my exam readings... hahaha) . just thought that i shud share this list. and maybe we can all make our own lists, and in time to come, take it out again, laugh at how true, how silly u were, or cry at how true, how silly u were.

so get ready your pens and paper, it's a fairly l.o.n.g. list. (i typed it all out! so YOU better do it if you think you NEED TO!)

HR module once again, anyone? *

However, because identity is a lifelong process, significant positive changes can be achieved, even by those with a serious failure identity. An important principle is: Although we cannot change the past, what we want out of the future, along with our motivation to achieve what we want, is more important (than our past experiences) in determining what out future will be.

and blah blah blah...

To determine who you are, answer the following more specific questions:

1. What do you find satisfying/ enjoyable?

2. What are your religious beliefs?

3.What is your moral code?
One possible code is to attempt to fulfill your needs and do what you find enjoyable without depriving others of the ability to fulfill their needs

4. What are your sexual mores?
All of us should develop a consistent code that we are comfortable with and that helps us meet our needs without exploiting others.

5. What kind of career do you desire?
Ideally, you should seek work that is stimulating and satisfying, that you are skilled at, and that earns you enough money to support the lifestyle you desire.

6. What are of the country or the world do you want to live in?

7. Do you hope to marry?
If yes, to what type of person? When? How consistent are your answers here with your other life goals?

8. Do you want to have children?
If yes, how many? When? How consistent are your answers here with your other life goals?

9. What kind of image do you want to project to others?

10. What do you enjoy doing in your leisure time?

11. Do you desire to improve the quality of your life and that of others?
If yes, in what ways? How do you hope to chieve these goals?

12. What type of people do you enjoy being with? Why?

13. What kind of relationship do you want to have with your relatives, friends, neighbours, and people you meet for the first time?

14. What are your thoughts about death and dying?

15. What do you hope to be doing in 5 years time? in 10 years times? in 20 years?
What are your plans for achieving these goals in these time periods?

To have a farily well-developed sense of identity, you need to have answers to most, but not all, of these questions. Very few people are able to arrive at rational, fully consistent answers to all the questions.

Expect some changes in your life goals as time goes on. As you grow as a person, changes will occur in your beliefs, attitudes, and values and in the activities that you find enjoyable.

* actually this isn't HR. it's the social work module. but it's good! very good. everyone should take it!

it was |4:12:00 AM|

Sonntag, April 23, 2006

you have, once again, outdone YOURSELF LEH!

less than 22hrs to the exams and u have a single chapter studied not.

(gosh why am i talking like it's germ-ish??)

anyways, is it my imagination, or does it seem like more and more germ-ish speaking adverts are on tv now? (gillette, subaru... izzit coz of the... Fussball-Weltmeisterschaft??)

yes, dun forget to join in the fun* !

back to the main topic.

yes. times are good. spirits are anew. the mix of soil and chocolate ice cream stains on the shirt (which one is soil? which one is ice cream? gosh!) testifies to that.

oh oh. i am very sad. becoz i think i'll never get to vote. boohoohoo. my daddy said that, he has never voted in his entire life... the opposition seems to avoid wherever he moved to...

i want to vote!

even tho' i think i'll end up voting for the PAP. haha. but hey! it's a right to vote and it'll be q. sad if we nv get to exercise that. and truth be told, some of the opposition really look q. look this time round. more SOLID sia.

anyways, just a kind reminder!

+ they printed my age as 22

- it's so far from like 14 years old in rgs hor

+ u noe hor
after this yr
we'ld have known each other for over a DECADE!

+ who wud have thot we'll reach this day..

- wah lao waddya mean?!
at least we're still alive
u make it sound like u expect us to be dead by now or something!

+ haha no lah!
as in time really pass by too fast w.o us knowing

+ i was looking at my sister's yrbk today
wahlau. everyone looks so young and fresh

+ and they SHINE
i SWEAR
they were SHINNING in the photos loh

- are u sure they are not shining cos the paper was glossy?

+ whereas nowdays i take photos and only look old and hagged and CRUMPLED

it was |6:57:00 PM|

Montag, April 03, 2006

yo. thanx to every single dearies for all ur concerns. *hugs* no worries man! actually, i was more irritated (exasperated! aggravated!) with some other things-that-shall-not-be-named than the thing-that-we-all-know-what-without-being-named.

basically i wish that life isn't so full of choices. choice is always good? oh wait till u discover the paradox of choices.

so well, i took that whole of thurs fri and sat days off from the thing-that-we-all-know-what-without-being-named to feel sorry for myself. listening to thereupatic songs and what nots. (wallflowers' babybird is very good!) which is very bad. and which means i ought to be in fighting gear now.

but i'm not.

and who was the idiot who said, "if life throws lemons at you, u make lemonade out of them"?

i've an awful feeling it's mrs. newby... ...

Now bring back your velvet heart

And we'll make you brand new feathers

Sleep through the morning light

With your arms around your brother

it was |9:08:00 AM|

Samstag, April 01, 2006

i shud've recognised it then.

the prolonged tiredness. the total disinterest in everything. not even food and meal times excite me anymore. and, in his own words, "don't be so pessimistic!"

these are the signs of burning out.

let's just try to hold on until the 3rd of may at least.

it was |11:43:00 AM|